Saturday, July 15, 2006

please.

a baby. so young. so innocent. so fresh from the arms of God. it seems unfair that a baby should have to go through any type of hardship, much less one that threatens her life. life is fragile, and in a difficult situation, that reminder is as close as the air i breathe. a friend faces the illness of her precious darling, even now being life-flighted to a hospital in a large city, and my heart aches for her. my insides cry out to God to give her the liver she needs, to correct what is wrong and give her an extraordinary life. i cannot help but think the enemy sees potential in her. every child of a believer poses great threat to the enemy's plans. this friend is from a strong, spiritually grounded family. she is a smile to me, ever since i first met her. she will pass down a Godly legacy of faith, one that is not easily shaken. and so i pray, lifting my loudest voice to heaven, knowing God hears and aches and knows my belief in His healing power. please, Father, save the life you created. save this darling baby, and bring glory to Your holy name.

Monday, July 10, 2006

prayer

wisps of incense
floating aloft into heaven's arms.
carrying thoughts i cannot know,
showering peace to a tired soul.
calling my name,
moving me forward,
longing for me to immerse myself.
move deep into prayer
finding my strength,
becoming myself,
my greatest self.
walking not on my own.
leaning with every step.
watching for leading,
looking right
glancing left.
waiting.
waiting for the voice.
longing for the blessing.
believing the power.
knowing.
knowing with all my being.
no room for doubt.
belief is here.
belief remains.
belief calls my name
expectantly,
confidently.
lands unexplored,
paradise at every turn.
fall, rain, fall
on this prayerful soul
fall on the essence of my soul.

decisions

ah, decisions. one decision affects another's life. on and on it goes, from generation to generation, person to person, situation to situation. i often fear the decisions others make. my natural inclination is to grab hold, to try to feed lines and thoughts that make others want to do what i want them to do. i think a more accurate word for that is manipulation. i want to be in control. i want to know that the things that are working, the blessings that are in place, will remain unchanged until i see the need for them to change. but no matter what i do or say, other people will make their own decisions. because i am not in control. i do not desire to be deceitful or conniving, to seek my own interest in any given circumstance. instead, i pray God will work in spite of me. i want His will more than i want my own. His peace. His leading. His decisions. He has never disappointed me. never left me alone. when things happen that threaten my world, that leave me fearing everything will be turned upside down - that's when greater blessings flow. in the end, it turns out much better than i could have made it myself. actually, it's perfect. and that's the way i want it. perfect. His way. for me.